Showing posts with label think. Show all posts
Showing posts with label think. Show all posts

Friday, July 8, 2011

Hold the wheel and drive...

I love driving, it's meditative, cathartic. My car becomes a prayer closet and my dashboard an altar (sans the little plastic Jesus figurine). One of these days I'll have to share with you my revelation about predestination that occured on Highway 84 (More Road to Portland than Damascus). I do my best thinking when I'm driving, though writing things down is somewhat difficult.

Since I had my Walden Weekend, I've been jonesing for some more thinking time. And I do love thinking, maybe I should have been a monk. Then I could hang out with Brother Lawrence and he could clue me in on The Practice of The Presence of God thing. But more on that at a later date...

This is why I'm so very excited that tonight I am headed out for a 23 hour roadtrip to sunny SoCal to pick up my friend Whitney for a 5 day road trip up Highway 101.


Aren't we a happy couple of rainsoaked bedraggled beauties?

Whitney rocks. Lest you think I exaggerate, check her out.

If you have a moment this coming week, think of Whit and I, wending our way up the coast as we add another 3K miles to my Nissan. Then go call a friend. Friends are awesome.

Have a great week, friends! I know I will.
For fun, let's flashback to 2001 and listen to some driving music.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Faithfulness vs Fame


When they found Him, they said to Him, “Everyone is looking for You.” Mark 1:37
Things were going really well for Jesus at this point. He had just received public, voice-from-the-sky approval directly from God and overcome a serious “wilderness” experience. People were in awe of him and demons were fleeing before him. He was becoming incredibly famous throughout the area and now Simon is telling Him that people are literally hunting him down in order to hear his message.
Things were fresh, dynamic, and effective, everything that we like ministry to be. But then Jesus says something that just blows the top of my head off:
But He said to them, “Let us go into the next towns, that I may preach there also, because for this purpose I have come forth.” Mark 1:38
What? Jesus, this is an incredibly fruitful ministry that you have with these people. They love you, why would you leave?

In saying this Jesus not only makes a statement about His own purpose, but also establishes two important principles for ministry: 1) Our purpose is definite and we cannot abandon or change it or with our circumstances change; and 2) the success of a ministry is not necessarily dependent on its popularity.

Jesus came to preach His message to the world, not to become famous or to receive approval. Even though his ministry to the people of this area was effective and productive, He couldn’t forget why He came or change His purpose. When God gives us a ministry, we cannot simply abandon or change that ministry to suit our circumstances. God, not the terrain, sets our course. The standard for success has less to do with results than it does with faithfulness. While this is important to remember in difficult circumstances, it is also true when things are going well.

Let’s say you are a farmer on your way to town sell some chickens and along the way you see this lush, fertile field. Well you can’t just abandon your plan and stop to plant this field because it’s a great opportunity; your chickens will go all Animal Farm and peck each other to death. And then they’re coming after you.

Maybe that’s not the best analogy. If I was on my way to the chicken market and happened to see a fertile field, my first thought wouldn’t be, “I wanna plant that field!” It would be, “Why the heck am I a chicken farmer?”

Here’s another one. Let’s say you are a student pursuing a degree in electrical engineering but you’ve been playing some bluegrass on the side. Then, Ellen happens to see your video on YouTube and offers you a record deal (yeah, she has one now). While you may be able to justify abandoning your plans to become an electrical engineer, if your parents are paying your tuition they get to weigh in on the idea.

You are not able to change your plans arbitrarily if someone else is paying the bill. It’s a somewhat cold example, but bear with me. Every gift God gives us, every experience we receive is His investment in us. He grooms us for a specific purpose. As if that were not enough, He even places His own Spirit in us. That kind of investment gives Him the right to define both our ministry and the standard for our success. That often means a fresh, dynamic, and effective ministry but not always

It’s a subtle distinction but an important one.

Faithfulness, not fame.

--Sarah Elizabeth

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Things that make me feel like a Millennial

Y2K
Surge
Scrunchies
Pogs
Apple IIe
Britney Spears
Orbitz
Fraggle Rock
Multicultural story problems
Friends
Recess/Reboot!!
Roll-on glitter lip-gloss
Vanilla Ice
Michael J Fox
Gamers
Tolerance
ICQ
Weezer
Lisa Ling
Gel pens
Oregon Trail/Number Muncher/Frogger
September 11th
Survivor
Harry Potter
KELLY CLARKSON!
Pokemon
MTV
Dystopia
Napster
The Matrix
Genocide
**Skeeeeeyewwwwwaaaaannngh*** (That sound your modem made when it connected to the Internet)
New Kids on the Block
TGIF
Suzanne Sommers
Wide Leg Jeans
Polyester shirts with snaps
Titanic
Bill Nye the Science Guy
Sega
Self mutiliation
Bulimia
Tiger Woods
The Real World
Monica Lewinsky
Social justice
Chatrooms
Bevis and Butthead/Angry Beavers/Dexter's Laboratory
iPods
Nirvana
Banned books
The Sixth Sense
Girl power
Livestrong
NYPD Blue
Wedge haircuts

Friday, February 12, 2010

Studies: February 12, 2010

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My Utmost for His Highest
February 12, 2009
And they said unto Moses, "Speak thou with us and we will hear: but let not God speak with us, lest we die." Exodus 20:19
We do not consciously disobey God, we simply do not heed Him. God has given us His commands; there they are, but we do not pay any attention to them, not because of wilful disobedience but because we do not love and respect Him. "If ye love Me, ye will keep My commandments." When once we realize that we have been "disrespecting" God all the time, we are covered with shame and humiliation because we have not heeded Him.

"Speak thou with us; but let not God speak with us." We show how little we love God by preferring to listen to His servants only. We like to listen to personal testimonies, but we do not desire that God Himself should speak to us. Why are we so terrified lest God should speak to us? Because we know that if God does speak, either the thing must be done or we must tell God we will not obey Him. If it is only the servant's voice
we hear, we feel it is not imperative, we can say, "Well, that is simply your own idea, though I don't deny it is probably God's truth."
Am I putting God in the humiliating position of having treated me as a child of His whilst all the time I have been ignoring Him? When I do hear Him, the humiliation I have put on Him comes back on me - "Lord, why was I so dull and so obstinate?" This is always the result when once we do hear God. The real delight of hearing Him is tempered with shame in having been so long in hearing Him.
What a wonderfully appropriate verse! Isn't this just what the church is doing? We have been looking to respected preachers, teachers, and leaders to tell us what God is saying rather than going to the Father, Himself. While these teachers may be worthy mouthpieces of God, as Moses was, the word is always purer, more effective, and pierces more deeply when it comes from God. I love this statement, "we know that if God does speak, either the thing must be done or we must tell God we will not obey Him."

I have been so frustrated in the past because my words, words which I thought were from God, were not valued or heeded by those to whom I was speaking. Now it is very possible that this was due to my own inadequacy as a speaker. But even if the words were blessed by God and delivered perfectly they still would never have the convicting power that God's words have when He speaks directly to our hearts. As a speaker I must allow God speak to hearts and as a listener I must allow Him to speak directly to me instead of relying solely on another human to guide me.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

why i don't sign petitions

i could not begin to number the emails, telephone calls, personal visits, and facebook invitations, that i have received pertaining to some kind of petition or another. these causes range from changing the speed limit to protecting child sex slaves in Rwanda. name the issue and there is some kind cause or movement trying to change it. superficially, this is encouraging. it is exciting that along with celebrity gossip and pornography, communication freeways are also spreading awareness about social injustices all around the world and we, the people, are moved by it. after fancying myself a social activist for a few years, i realized that my awareness and outrage over these issues translating into nothing more than a periodic donation and clicking on the button that says "sign up here." anymore, social activism costs very little while rewarding us with a t-shirt or bumper sticker to go with the satisfaction of knowing that we're "changing the world." 
the trouble is, the world isn't getting any better. i read an article recently that said that in 2007, the United States passed a law prohibiting military assistance to countires known to tolerate child soldiers (http://www.govtrack.us/congress/bill.xpd?bill=s110-1175). praise God, what a victory! sadly, i realized that, though this shows the u.s.'s concern for this horrible practice, it will not end it any more than the death penalty will prevent the murder that will happen tomorrow (especially considering that the enforcement of such legislature slightly questionable). i will not pretend to fully understand the nuances of international policy or that i know a better way for our government to combat social injustices overseas, however i do know that without exception, wherever there is a law there will always be an army of lawbreakers. the sad fact is that there is absolutely nothing we can do as a government, coalition, or individual to prevent one person or group of persons (especially one several countries away) from victimizing another.
some would say that awareness, activism, and even our laws help shape our social mores. activism played an important role in changing our views on ethnic discrimination. awareness combats the ignorance that often propagates what may be an accepted evil. but did the civil rights movement end racism or simply redirect it? while the majority accepts that it is wrong to (overtly) judge someone based on their gender, the color of their skin or their cultural practices, but would anyone dare say that discrimination is any less prevalent now than it was 100 years ago? do we not judge someone based on their physical shape or their use of poor grammar? the evil that has been largely 'defeated' still lurks, as strongly as ever, in the shadows of human behavior.
i'm not suggesting apathy or inactivity, rather i would say that petitions and legislature are inappropriate treatments resulting from misdiagnosis. people do not wrong one another because we allow them to do so; because there are no laws preventing it. rather, people wrong one another because we are sinful and wicked. while well-meaning and perhaps marginally effective, the world's response to wickedness can never be truly effective because it does not even understand sin.
it's not enough to contain sin with laws, ethics or even morals. if you live in the world long enough, you will realize that you (or another) can spend your entire life avoiding "bad" things and still manage to kill and maim the people around you. there are common practices within humanity which are far more devastating and cause much more damage than murder, rape or child abuse. but how would you legislate love? respect? unselfishness? and we know by experience that laws have no hope of preventing the corruption that plagues our economy. sin encompasses an array of activity and inactivity that cannot possibly be anticipated by man let alone enumerated by a lawmaker.
we flatter ourselves when we think that we can change the world. we cannot change the world anymore than we can change ourselves. how can i hope to prevent a monster from putting a gun in the hands of a nine year old when i cannot even prevent myself from spreading a malicious rumor? how can i help Rwanda remove the speck in its eye when i can't even see around the plank in my own? sin is not combatted by raising awareness or by writing a letter to my senator nor is a child saved because i send him $50. wickedness is stopped by a changed heart, hearts are only changed by the power of God.
that said, God can and often does use the voice of an individual or the actions of an organization to speak to the heart of another. there are times when God may use my bank account to fund his work. but God changes hearts in times of silence and static and there are times when He sends bread from heaven and pure water from a stone. our participation in His work must begin with prayer. there is no greater weapon that we can employ to combat the injustice around the world. the thousands of swords in the hands of a multitude of mighty warriors were powerless against the giant that God defeated with a small stone. yet we still insist on running the forges overtime and overcrowding our barracks.
i do not sign petitions because, for me, it a cheap excuse for inactivity. it gives me reason to feel good about myself while not costing me more than a moment of my time. i do not march in protests because it is an inefficient use of time that should be spent in a secret place of prayer.

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Thoughts on Witchcraft Pt 1

unedited...

So (not so recently) there has been a massive turning of interest, especially among my generation, to magic, new age, and wicca. Most if not all non judeo-christian religions have the same basic foundation. Well you know that's complete hooey coming from me, I haven't studied all religions. But it seems that most religions have this element of there being innate power or energy found in creation. As human's we sense that there is something rippling underneath the fabric of the visible world--"for what can be known about God is plain to them, because God has shown it to them. For his invisible attributes, namely his eternal power and divine nature, have been clearly perceived, ever since since the creation of the world, in the things that have been made- Rom 1:19-20" And we all have a desire to touch that power in the most intimate way. This is common to all men, you can see it in any culture around the world. I can't prove that....but I bet no one can prove me wrong either . So we all sense this power and are naturally intrigued by it—we want a piece of it. So we find a way.
Most successful religions offer their members an opportunity to touch this power; to be aligned with it. One of the reasons its so appealing is that you are not required to serve an omnipotent deity instead you are offered a chance to unite with the deity, to accept gifts from it (her) and so long as you respect the balance of the universe and do your best to be unselfish and loving, you are pretty much let loose. Can you imagine how enticing that is? In fact, I've noticed in my incredibly peripheral observation of these religions how the ultimate experience is...well it always has some sort of sexual aspect. That's one of the reasons it can be at a glance disturbing. There is a blatant appreciation for sensual experiences that makes a Christian uncomfortable. But-now hear me out- its really very similar to Christianity. The divine model God gives us of the perfect relationship between man and God is that between a man and his wife, the culmination of that being sexual--not just physical but on all levels: "Therefore a man shall leave his father and his mother and hold fast to his wife, and they shall become one flesh Gen 2:24" I don't think that Christianity needs to take a more sexual route or take an example from divergent religions, but we don't celebrate the good in these things nearly enough.
We are designed to unite with a higher power-doesn't that just sound so new agey? Its not wrong to desire it. I think we (Christians) approach divergent religions wrong. We try to show how immoral or divergent they are by showing how they're different from Christianity. But that doesn't mean anything to someone who already thinks the standards of Christianity are wrong. Neither do I think that we need to show how Christianity is 'like everything else' because it's not supposed to be. Instead, we need to see the common nature of man, and how all religions really are simply perversions of what God created. It’s important to show that the innate drives of humans are not where the problems lie but in how we manifest them, how we exercise them. Remember Satan is not a creator, but a perverter. The truth is that people don’t really want a domineering and overbearing god monitoring and controlling their actions. They don’t mind acknowledging a higher power as long as they are do so of their own volition and are not expected to do so. And really the power isn’t so centralized or personified, its more of an essence flowing through all of the universe, throughout creation. So in reality the “god” is the universe-“they exchanged the truth about God for a lie and worshiped and served the creature rather than the Creator, who is blessed forever! Amen. Rom 1:25”These religions give people a way to touch the power of creation without having to consult with the Creator.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

yet another assertion of Christ's deity

i don't know how anyone who truly studies the bible with an open heart can deny the Jesus is God. true i approach scriptures already believing it but that does not change the evidence. it is not even that there is a single scripture that clinches the argument, although there are, arguably, several. it is rather the sheer volume of scriptures that state or even just imply this truth. the entire weight of the bible, it seems, rests on the assertion the Christ is God. i really should just post all the scriptures i find but here's one for today.

therefore, holy brethren, partakers of the heavenly calling, consider the apostle and high priest of our confessions JESUS CHRIST who was faithful to Him who appointed him as moses also was faithful in all His house. for this ONE has been counted worthy of more glory than moses, inasmuch as 'He who built the house' has more honor than the house, for ever house is built by someone but 'He who builds all things' is God. -heb 3:1-4

lets see if i can build a little syllogism here...
Jesus='he who built the house' (via the analogy in vs3)
'he who builds all things'=God (v4)
'all things' includes 'the house'
God= 'he who built the house'
Jesus =God

Friday, June 6, 2008

confessions of st augustine

my soul and my e-pen (i-pen?) have been dry as of late, mostly because i have not dipped it into sufficiently often. but God is merciful and gives me gifts that i don't deserve and have not earned. like today i finally picked up a copy of the confessions of st augustine, a volume i have been 'thinking about getting' for more than a year. my brief encounters with st augustine through different sources fascinated me and drew a line of companionship with the struggling-saint he was. how much more beautiful is the glory of God when it pours out of an earthen vessel; how much more beautiful is it when the earthen vessel does not pretend to be a priceless work of art. i have only read the 1st two chapters and it is already balm to my self-loathing soul. this is a passage or 'confessions' regarding augustine's love for the theater. it spoke directly to my heart. i have often wondered why i enjoy weeping over sorrowful movies and even wished i was a cast-off, widow, or a star cross'd lover even though these things, when experienced in reality, are not romantic or glamorous but instead simply depressing. ok, introduction over, here is a bit of the gold God has dispensed upon me today.

"Stage-plays also carried me away, full of images of my miseries, and of fuel to my fire. Why is it that man desires to be made sad, beholding doleful and tragical things, which yet himself would be no means suffer? yet he desires as a spectator to feel sorrow at them, and this very sorrow is his pleasure. What is this but a miserable madness? ...what sort of compassion is this for feigned and scenical passions? for the audito is not called on to relieve, but only to grieve: and he applauds the actor of these fictions the more, the more he grieves. ...Shall compassion then be put away? By no means. For griefs too be sometimes loved. But beware of uncleanness, O my soul, under the guardianship of my God, the God of my fathers, who is to be praised and exalted above all for ever, beware of uncleanness. For I have not now ceased to pity; but then in the theatres I rejoiced with lovers, when they wickedly enjoyed one another, although this was imaginary only in the play. And when they lost one another, as if very compassionate, I sorrowed with them, yet had my delight in both. ...though he that grieves for the miserable, be commended for his office of charity; yet had he, who is genuinely compassionate, rather there were nothing for him to grieve for."