psalm 131

"LORD, my heart is not haughty, nor my eyes lofty. neither do i concern myself with great matters nor with things too profound for me. surely i have calmed and quieted my sould like a weaned child with his mother; like a weaned child is my soul within me."

there is a need embedded within our psyche to know and understand. to catalog the mysteries of the universe and study them. its this almost primal need that drives us into the sciences with greater fervor than we ever throw into the development of faith. we devote more time more easily to the study of doctrine, to the knowledge of God than we do to the knowing of God.

we hide acceptably under the umbrella of knowledge an few ever think to challenge our position for who would ever discourage anyone from gaining knowledge? the truth is that knowledge indeed puffs up (1 cor 8:1) and there is no salvation found there. the legitimate need to know truth, to understand is met not with the wisdom of God but the incomplete and often highly inconsistent knowledge which comes from the world. countless days, years, and entire lives have been squandered on useless knowledge which, like a hit of heroin, only satisfies the need temporarily. the need is not even met by reaching an understanding of God (if such a thing really could be) or philosophy but rather the personal ginosko knowledge that only comes from a relationship.

lofty pursuits, as described in this psalm, are rightfully associated with a haughty spirit. the more time we spend in transcendence, watching the world from the clouds, the easier it becomes to look down upon it. this desperate search has no end so calm and quiet your soul. like a child with mother, rest.